i wrote this a longgg time ago
the way most of us fake being happy is so sad. i want to be happy. and not for just a little, sometimes. i want to be happy all the time. i want us all to be happy. i hate being sad. and i hate faking it! i hate smiling and laughing in school just to be that one girl who could always make someone else smile, but couldn’t let herself see the glass half full. i can never, ever have two parents at the same time. i missed my dad, and now that i finally have him back. my mom thinks i’m leaving her? and she takes me away from time with my own father? i can’t look at him and hear him say it’s not fair. i can’t stand to have my mom think i’m leaving her, cause thats not it at all. i have enought drama of my own, i don’t need my moms on top of it.
i want to wish it all away. this whole life. i want to earse the last year. lastnight sucked so much pretending that i was okay. it was better because i was with people that love me, but it hurt. still. i remember it, like it happend yesterday. and thats no fair. i want it gone out of my mind.
i take pitty on some people. i feel truely bad for them. and for some i just feel like they need a slap in the face, a big reality check. people that don’t know me should just stfu. you have no idea what i am, or who i am, or my out look on life. so don’t judge me and PRETEND you know me. i’m nothing i used to be. if i don’t like you, i’m not gonna fake it. so stop.
